I just started Week No. 13 of unemployment and FINALLY the North Carolina Economic Security Commission has decided to start giving me my money. I tell you, it’s not much but Lord knows it’s way more than what I was getting. There is nothing like bills coming in and no money to pay them to make you real humble, real quick.
Last weekend, I attended the Brand You workshop put on the Triad Association of Black Journalists, my local chapter of the national organization. I learned a lot, got to see some friends and really put into thought what my next move should be. Because it’s already been three months and I’m still unemployed, a lot of folks who want to help have been asking me “what is it that you want to do next?” I can honestly say, I have no idea.
I've got the power!
I’ve been working as a professional journalist for the last eight years of my life. I’ve dabbled in retail and working with kids. When in college, I did a little bit of IT work, but at this moment in my life, I have no clue as to what I want to do next. This weekend while answering the question of “what kind of jobs are you looking for,” I realized there is not a single ounce of shame in not knowing. In fact, I think there’s some power in it.
Wherever I go and whatever I do next is all on me. If I decide to go back to school, work with kids, roam the Earth like Caine in Kung Fu – it’s MY decision. I’ve got the power. That is scary and exciting all at the same time. If I succeed, it’s my victory. If I fail, it’s my fault. A year ago, I would have flown into a full-on panic attack. Today, tho, I’m peaceful. Today, I’m ready – for whatever.
So, now that you have this windfall, I have this sheep farm I want us to invest in
You’re right that there is not shame in it. The only people that ever feel that way are old people, you have so many choices and are so talented why limit yourself to some old boring snooze of a gig.