I just started Week No. 13 of unemployment and FINALLY the North Carolina Economic Security Commission has decided to start giving me my money. I tell you, it’s not much but Lord knows it’s way more than what I was getting. There is nothing like bills coming in and no money to pay them to make you real humble, real quick.
Last weekend, I attended the Brand You workshop put on the Triad Association of Black Journalists, my local chapter of the national organization. I learned a lot, got to see some friends and really put into thought what my next move should be. Because it’s already been three months and I’m still unemployed, a lot of folks who want to help have been asking me “what is it that you want to do next?” I can honestly say, I have no idea.
I've got the power!
I’ve been working as a professional journalist for the last eight years of my life. I’ve dabbled in retail and working with kids. When in college, I did a little bit of IT work, but at this moment in my life, I have no clue as to what I want to do next. This weekend while answering the question of “what kind of jobs are you looking for,” I realized there is not a single ounce of shame in not knowing. In fact, I think there’s some power in it.
Wherever I go and whatever I do next is all on me. If I decide to go back to school, work with kids, roam the Earth like Caine in Kung Fu – it’s MY decision. I’ve got the power. That is scary and exciting all at the same time. If I succeed, it’s my victory. If I fail, it’s my fault. A year ago, I would have flown into a full-on panic attack. Today, tho, I’m peaceful. Today, I’m ready – for whatever.
