Before I jump into today’s post, do stop by The Jaded Nyer’s spot for the last installment of #womanlaw, “Bitch, you got kids …” Over the past several weeks, The Jaded Nyer, F$%k It List, Bangs and a Bun, the departed Reina Song and I have brought you several #womanlaw posts that were geared to steer you heffas toward finer womanhood. It is my sincere hope that you were able to take heed and you are now on the road to do better.
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A few weeks ago, I consulted with my pocket counselor, one Miss F$%k It List and I shared with her that I have yet to feel like an adult.
I left my mother’s house at 18 for college. I went on to graduate early, take an internship and subsequently a job in Bumfuck, Tenn. I decided to leave after nearly two years and move in with my dad. Eight months later, I took another job in the foothills of NC, then four years ago the job I’m in now.
I’ve managed, IDK how, to stay afloat financially, borrowing from my dad only when I REALLY need it and he never takes the money back. Somewhere in all that, I don’t think I’ve ever felt like an adult. I wonder if this is something that all the youngest in families go through or if this is a “Smarty thing.”
I honestly have no concept of what makes a person an adult, but I do know I want to grow up. Hell, it’s time. Everyone and everything is changing around me, yet I feel like I haven’t. *shrug* I’m not exactly sure what adults do, but I don’t think I’m doing that.
I remarked to F$%k It List that I only feel grown when I pay bills and she very quickly and accurately pointed out that paying bills doesn’t make me grown. So, what does? I’m not sure what I need to do or if there is anything more I should be doing.
Truthfully, I’m just venting in hope that the answer will come out. Since I’ve yet to come up with it, so I’ll ask you, what makes an adult? When did you feel grown?
