Daily Archives: February 4, 2010

Just last week I realized after being on this planet for 27 years and eight months that the majority of adults spend a lot of time doing shit they don’t want to do. Whether it’s work or putting out fires at home, the majority of folks do it, bitch about it and do it all over again the next day.
While you may be asking yourself why I’m just now figuring this out, my answer to this is I’ve been spending all my time doing shit I don’t want to do so I had no time to hear myself think, let alone come up with shit pertinent to my sanity.
With that, I’ve decided that the things that I have control over that I don’t want to do, I’m not going to do. I’ve spent the majority of my life doing things and making my life decisions based on other peoples’ needs. Well, not anymore.
I decided last week that I can’t go for that.
I can’t go for stepping up to do things for people who aren’t stepping up for themselves. I can’t go for sacrificing my time, my solitude and my sanity for people who don’t appreciate it. I can’t go for going out of my way to be nice and understanding and patient with people who don’t return it.
From here on out, I’m going to hear people out and give their requests and pleas for help adequate thought and consideration before I say, “Hell no.”
For as long as I can remember, I’ve gone above and beyond the call of duty in my various roles afraid to say no out of fear that I end up alone. Well, I’m alone now and I gotta say, it’s bad, but it’s not as bad as I thought it’d be. If I run myself ragged for other people and I still end up alone, then what’s the purpose?
I’ve come up with a plan, I’m going to help enough so that I feel good and I secure my spot in Heaven, anything more,  I can’t go for that. No can do!